As much as I’ve moaned about the whole blaugust thing so far I think I have learnt quite a bit in just this week. Well for start there is the fact that writing every day just isn’t for me but I think I’ll keep trying just to see what other life lessons I can squeeze out of it for now. I know Bel said recently that the lesson isn’t really about writing everyday anyway but just making it into some sort of routine, a routine for you that works and enables you to establish yourself while avoiding the whole issue with burning out.
I get that and it’s something that is important to remember but the thing I’ve really learnt, and this is an extension of that, is that it is about having a certain balance to things. A balanced blogging life but it extends far further than that to having a balanced life in regards to hobbies, interests, friends families and everything else. Sometimes you do need to schedule time away for all these things in order to find a balance. I’m more insular so the rare outing suffices to me but even at home with my own interests it’s a hard balance to achieve.
For a while now I’ve seen gaming just about completely take over my other interests. I play countless hours in RPG A or platformer B yet I forget about my interest in music and movies and television. I used to enjoy sketching things as well but that hasn’t been a part of my free time for years and it’s been even longer than that since I painted a miniature. Those things are something I just kind of forget within the moment of gaming yet looking back I do feel a little guilty about it.
Lately I have been trying to attain more of this balance in interests just because I do miss those experiences and the enjoyment they provide. I’ve been watching more anime again, I’ve redownloaded some of the shows I enjoyed as well as getting updated on a few current ones. I’ve been listening to music again; some albums I missed and still own, going through YouTube and cutting back in gaming podcasts just to listen to the radio on the way to work. Triple J for me, not one of those more mainstream idiotic chat back ones and enjoying it immensely. It’s nice to get back on those things I do enjoy but don’t seem to make time for otherwise.
The only issue with that is that I tend to multi-task far too much… well multi-task isn’t the right word I think, more .. overload. I never just have one thing I’m focusing on, one thing to look and engage with but a plethora of things vying for my attention at once. The T’v is blaring away, I’m gaming and then maybe checking my phone for twitter things (seriously, screw you all for getting me into that). We talked a little about Simchas post on the Podcast this morning but it really holds true here in that I’m never truly in the moment, not just thinking of the present but in the moment for a single thing and I think I miss out because of it.
It is really getting into those moments with a single thing that builds those memories and experiences you take with you. Just last week I remember sitting at the cafe with a hot ginger and lemongrass tea (seriously, orgasm in a cup) while staring out the window and listening to a Chet Faker album for most of my hour break. I wasn’t worried about what the internet was doing or anything else just being in that moment and it was wonderful.
I need these sorts of moments more often so I think I’m going to cut back on a lot on all these modern elements. It’s hard as it’s just so pervasive these days and your connected to so many elements at any one time all trying to compete for your attention but it’s just too much now. Time to just focus on one thing entirely; the game I’m playing, the anime I’m enjoying or even just writing a post which I thought I was going to do but ended up researching wargaming.. sigh… guess it takes time to achieve haha.